Leaving One Career Behind

This is my story, or should I say, this is a record of my adventure. At one time I thought my life was all sewn up and everything should be where it’s suppose to be, but I was wrong. In 2003, I had an o.k. job working for a cell phone company. I was making about $11.25 an hour after one year and would have probably be making $13.00 or more an hour by now, but I wasn’t happy. I felt like something was calling me or that I was wasting my potential. I’m not a genuis or anything, don’t get me wrong, however I have always been told by others that my biggest talent was my intellect. I like to read, write, plan, brainstorm, and debate the mysteries of the universe, you know, simple stuff like that. So in 2005, against my mind and my boyfriend, I quit my job at the cell phone company and got another job working part time at a financial institution to pursue my dream in journalism. I enrolled in the local community college and I am searching frantically for a job more suited to my future. So now I bet your expecting to read “she lived happily ever after. The end”. Well hold on, everything has not gone so smoothly.
Let’s start with the biggest problem: me. I have self doubts about what I’m doing and those doubts range from fear of financial woes to fear of failure. Since I work part-time, I now make less than I did before and my boyfriend has to pick up the slack. Sometimes I think, “what if I fail?” I have no financial aid, so I pay for school and books out of pocket, but what happens if I become too overwhelmed?? I also fear the lack of finding employment in my field. What if I don’t find a job?? Something in the back of my mind erodes at my confidence and guides me to second guess my decisions, but going back to college is a good thing, right? I mean, there is a difference between a career and a job? I have to make it through this and every step of the way I will write about my progress. So maybe this adventure won’t be too bad.